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I'm in NYC. I'm pretty bored right now because I have so much to do and I don't really know where to start. I need to memorise scenes and costume them, but I don't really feel like it right now. So I just came in from a late night smoke with the smokin' hot RA and the fucking crazy Charlotte May. I laughed my ass off and made a fool of myself. I'm fucking crazy and I think people can see that the more I talk. Sometimes I should just stop talking before I go too far. So I like this guy but my chances are blown. They were actaully gone before I even opened my mouth. I'm underage and he's 23...5 years apart. Okay so he just came by and maybe he doesn't think I'm a complete loser. He thought my little sarcasm working with Charlotte May wasn't over the top and we had a few good laughs in the hall. ::shrug:: peace.
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[13 Jul 2006|01:21am] |
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We all have our little insecurities, fears, and necessities in life, right? Well what if you had the fear that no one wants you and you have to have someone liking you and wanting you all the time. I've got those problems. It's a lot of pressure on one person to try and solve their own loneliness. There are many different ways in which people go about doing this. I personally choose the "instant-physical-gratification" route. I know how it sounds...yes i'm sorry. but goddamn it, i'm so tired I can't quite finish this. All I have to say is that I'm tired of throwing myself out there. I'm the kind of person who knows what she wants and goes out and gets it. I don't think about the consequences of my actions at all. I'm stupid and do too many things on a whim. I have great respect for anyone who thinks before they act and for people who understand and accept the future results of their actions. I applaud them. I'm tired . good night
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| dreams at their best |
[25 Jun 2006|10:39pm] |
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Yeah so I figured out that more than one person reads these journal entries...sweet. It's a lot easier for me to be write in a journal (though it's online) than to keep up with Myspace's NEW PICS! and TOP 8! and "omg I didn't get a comment from you yesterday!" shit.
Life's been treating me okay. I could have asked for a less productive summer, though. Too much babysitting. I'm sure other people are experiencing the same thing, right? Summer is a time to relax and enjoy an empty schedule. Oh well, I'll try not to complain because I am making money to do what I love (go to NYC to study)...So I'm learning to tough it out because my goal is worth it. Anyone else dealing with tough-shit times? If so, go ahead and spill :) I'm all ears...or eyes?
Random:
Maybe I'll get paired up with a cute boy from Europe to do a love scene with (at night in the rain, of course) while in New York. That would be amazing. OR...Ryan Gosling (Noah from THE NOTEBOOK) will walk in one day to class and ask for a volunteer to do a scene from the movie. Then after we work together he'll ask me to get coffee with him and later we will enjoy a nice long walk on the Brooklyn Bridge while the sun sets talking about true love and the business of show business.
...And they lived happily ever after.
The End :)
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[20 Jun 2006|12:00am] |
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How about this...no one reads this journal. I even forgot I had one. Therefore I shall tell you (the only one reading it) that I have feelings for you. Yes, Max I do. I realize that this summer is extremely busy and as soon as we blink our eyes it will be over so I figured why wait even longer to tell you? It's crazy because I've gone on three dates this summer with three different guys that I don't care for and everytime they left to do something I would just think about you. I would even catch myself zoning out and thinking about you.
So that is it. I'm not going to beat around the bush anymore. I just needed to get it out there and move on. (if you like it you can take it, if you don't you can send it right back) <Anchorman quote. Thanks for reading. If you'd like to talk to me about it, that'd be great. If not, nothing will change and that's fine too.
-Teal.
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[26 Jul 2004|03:51pm] |
this journal was created by katy munn who is the shit!!!!! word muda fucka....you only wish you were as cool her she is the coolest thing on the block and iam soo glad she is my friend so some of her coolness will rub off on me !!
bye suckas!!!
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| Almost Blew My Cover |
[20 Jun 2004|10:43pm] |
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Nicole said I couldn't say it. |
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Good Entries Like These.
Made My Day.
Peace.
Love.
Teal.
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| I've got weak knees |
[18 Jun 2004|06:45pm] |
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So not much has been happening in my life lately. Just the usual, you know...a B every once in a while and a few good laughs.
I'm leaving for Boston in one week and wont be back for five weeks :/ I probably wont get see those moving on to college and such for a while...a while. Stop by and say hey if things become too distant or we'll just keep talking online and through these damned journals. :)
My stomach has been acting really weird lately...I don't know why.
The tan is slowly subsiding.
Our swim team won our first meet of the season last night...by one fucking point! Way to go Matt M., Derek (O_O), Matt R., and uhh...shit that other kid. heh.
Tomorrow I am spending the day with Katy at the Georgian Terrace Hotel across from the Fox Theatre, that should be fun. We've got the Penthouse! So give me a call you L5P playas and maybe we can hook up. Or you could come by the hotel and check out our suite. tee-hee.
Love.
Teal.
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| ...nice try... |
[07 Jun 2004|08:36pm] |
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My excitment for the day: seeing a guy that looked exactly like David Cassidy and losing my favorite work-out shorts. I purchased a Bob Marley poster today. It's hanging above my bed next to my butterfly.
Wow, I don't think i'll be posting for a long time again. Until I have something to actually talk about this journal will remain idle.
Love.
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| Summer's here? what the fuck? |
[04 Jun 2004|07:11pm] |
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hey, long time no update. Wonder if anyone reads this anymore. I'm going to Boston in a few weeks so I wont be able to update it. Damn, i'm bored. If anyone's interested go ahead and call me. my number: 404 421 8805. Hunter, Adam, Nicole, Katy, Max, John, Andrew...we should get together before I leave.
Love to all.
-Teal
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| I have a mean mean mind |
[10 Feb 2004|03:21pm] |
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You and i have memories longer then the road that stretches out ahead. We're on our way home. We're goin' home. So i've finally realized it now...Dance IS my life. I'm gone all the time dancing 3 hours a night and 5-7 hours on Saturday. I'm getting more and more excited about it, though. I can't wait until summer time. I'm either going to Boston or (New York) I HOPE! Not sure if i got into ABT yet, but if i did...it's a straight shot from there. This means that i go there every summer until i graduate and then i'll go there full time after that and slowly but surely make my way up to the top. It will take time, patience, and whatever else goes with that. But now that i see my dream in the distance it's so much easier for me. I'm not running in the dark anymore. I have a plan.
Car troubles...I'll most likely be stuck with the Saturn. Damn it! Don't you hate it when the parents decide to put a new engine on the old shitty car? I do.
2 new Beatles CD's
Revolver
Let it Be
(the only one missing is the White Album...I know...the best one!)
Today I heard a story about a man who couldn't taste anything. How terrifying. (he lost his sense...that's even worse). Knowing that you had a beautiful sense then it was taken away in just a second. Life.
Teal
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[30 Jan 2004|10:00pm] |
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O_O
Maybe i'll just sit here and wait for something to come to my mind. I don't want to clean my room, do my homework, or think about dance. I want to eat whole wheat saltines and watch TV. I do not want to go to the audition tomorrow or starve myself for the next week to come. The American Ballet Theatre is going to lay their eyes upon me for the first time and i shall be ready to look pleasing and dance pleasing.
My schedule is so packed for the next two weeks.
Remind me breathe.
I really need to clean my room and get my ass together (haha). Only the first five minutes of trying to do something you do not want to do is hell. It's like waking up when you've been in an awesome deep sleep. It's life. I'll fucking move on.
Hard-ass Teal
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| Janitors like blood shed |
[29 Jan 2004|10:29pm] |
So this morning i wake up and get a cup of tea like most mornings. This time it's a new Yarba Matte` or whatever the hell it's called. I take the tea, open it up, smell it and it smells like a cigarette. I blow it off, make it, try it and then it tastes like someone took a filter, steeped it in boiling water and added sugar. What a load of shit. So i'm pissed off and i go into first period. Well my friend is sitting there tearing up. I ask her what's wrong and she tells me about what's been happening in her family for the past two days (more like a year if you add it up). I have never really realized how fortunate i am to be in the position i'm in. I live happily every day communicating with my parents (whether i want to or not) and go to dance and sell every bad memory i have from that day. Unfortunately it's not like that for everyone and for that i feel a bit niave. So after this long talk (oh and she's a very good friend of mine, our relationship isn't lite) i start feeling for her and actually thinking about life in her shoes. So i take a sip from my tea again that was sitting on my desk collecting dust and it tasted like heaven. It was odd for me to go from hating the dumbest or most irrelavent object/event to absolutely praising this tea after a simple life altering obstacle talk from my friend. So even though i knew that moral quite a long time ago i never really payed attention to it because "It can't happen to me." And that's where i'm wrong. It can happen to anyone. Everyone's life has ups and downs it's just the time in which you experience them. That was my day, then i went to dance. Much love to all.
Teal
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[27 Jan 2004|04:08pm] |
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And this is nothing new. It seems so different then the last. If ech day starts a new page...we've had plenty of time to recover.
Dance
DNTL
Dear God
Teal
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[25 Jan 2004|10:01pm] |
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For the first time in my life i completely understand what is going on in a certain situation yet at the same time it's so unclear. If you were to freeze time...go back....and re-read the conversation you would have no idea what was happening or taking place. You wouldn't because it's an "in-the-moment" scenario. There's no way you could have possibly understood what was occuring because it was all emotion-felt. Everything was channeled with and understanding energy. Possibly the only reason it seems confusing is that it's so surreal. "Words are inert, they're just symbols...they're dead, ya know?"
I know you'll understand this when read. Love
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[24 Jan 2004|12:01am] |
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So what is there to talk about on a Friday night at 12:00 (okay, technically morning)? I'm going to dance tomorrow...::cricket cricket:: yeah so i go every day. Nothing new. I am going to Max's tomorrow, though. I'd just like to say: HAPPY 17TH MAX
I hope the weather is fair (as in not too cold).
Tomorrow the wallflower position is already applied for, but i'll take my position by the stereo with you if i have to. Love.
♥ Teal
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[20 Jan 2004|04:06pm] |
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Ever wanted to combine two people together? I do. Just take them and add and subtract physical features then work on their mental/emotional states. I would thoroughly enojy that! Which two people would you combine? John Lennon and Brandon Boyd. hmm. If i'm the only one who finds this interesting i'm going to laugh at myself. Can't wait until Saturday night! Real hang- out time again.
Been Busy. Love All. Peace
Teal
p.s. haha. i was going to ask you to post your cell numbers but that was dumb. whoa. Later.
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[06 Jan 2004|12:06am] |
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I feel weird. I suppose i feel like my mother at a younger age, though. My mother and father are 9 years apart. What do you say to having a relationship with someone 9 years older than you? Random thought? I think not.
Confusion is definitely a word i would put in this entry because that describes me and how i feel (you could say that or scrambled eggs).
One more day of "vacation". How sad :/
"they say that time will make all this go away
but its time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterday
and once again that rising sun is a droppin on down
and once again you my friend are no where to be found"
Peace
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| Back but not for long |
[26 Dec 2003|08:38pm] |
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SO i haven't written in a while but what can I say, I've been busy. Lot's of new events have been occurring and the new year is certain to be a great one (or i hope). here's the interesting part- my x-mas gifts:
New clear blue glass desk (too big)
computer in my room (happens to be the one with all the good music on it!)
Incubus calender
Waking Life DVD
"I Am Sam" soundtrack
Classical Ballet Technique book
Foot Spa (WITH JET ACTION!)
warm-ups
wireless keyboard and mouse
big one: a personal trainer to get me in shape for auditions and potentially my career.
mm, yeah and 2 make-up cases
mmm, yes-siree i do love X-mas. I've been pretty sick these past 3 days (and x-mas morning). Nothing like being dragged out of bed by your father with a temp. of 100.5 to open presents. My personal training officially starts tomorrow. I haven't called Nicole or Natasha like i said i would - what a friend, right? Been having weird dreams lately. Does anyone else have more off-color dreams when you're sick then in good health? I think thats how how i am. I bought my brother the Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas book and he's already done with it, so we know who's getting it next...yes! Max - I need your new LJ.
So thats about it for now. Maybe next time when i take a break i wont take it so long or i'll tell you guys so you don't keep checking. I'll be surprised if i still have a few friends that still read this.
Much Love to all and i hope everyone's holidays are going great.
Teal
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| if you disagree... |
[07 Dec 2003|03:49pm] |
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Everyone loves Max!
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